When Happy Mother’s Day Isn’t

When Mother’s Day is not how you thought it would be…

That first Mother’s Day spent without your own mom is tough. The first Mother’s Day spent without your adult child, your young child, your baby child, or your unborn child is brutal. And if you can just get through the first Mother’s Day, then all the ones after that will be…

Bruisingly tough.

Angie Smith is one of my heroes. In 2008, Angie Smith and her husband Todd (lead singer of the group Selah) learned through ultrasound that their fourth daughter had conditions making her “incompatible with life.” Advised to terminate the pregnancy, the Smiths chose instead to carry this child and allow room for a miracle. That miracle came the day they met Audrey Caroline and got the chance to love her for the precious two-and-a-half hours she lived on earth. In her blog, Bring the Rain, http://angiesmithonline.com/ Angie writes achingly and with hope and faith.

Sometimes I think it’s harder to believe the way I do, because I believe with everything in me that He could have changed the story. This line of thinking inevitably brings me to the question, “Why didn’t He?” Many people have written me with the same question, and I want to tell you that I have thought it through many times, and I have come up with a great theological explanation that I want to share with you.

I have absolutely no idea.

What I do know is this:

The Lord walk beside me and He walked beside Moses, and He knows me by name. He loves me, and I love Him. I pushed my baby through the reeds, and never saw her again. And yet, here I am, worshipping the God who allowed it.

Angie is the author of I Will Carry YouI Will Carry You tells the powerful story of a parent losing her child, interwoven with the biblical story of Lazarus to help those who mourn to still have hope—to find grace and peace in the sacred dance of grief and joy.

[originally posted on May 6, 2011]

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Saturday Digest~March 10

A couple of poems from this rainy Saturday

~Love this poem about being different. “Some lies are told to us and some are in our heads” Click here

~I just caught my breath when I read these words of poetryClick here

~Jean wonders if she is crazy. Well, I love Jean’s kind of crazy and if Jean she is crazy, let’s all join her on her next adventure!  Click here

~ Soul-searching post featuring 3 reasons you’re neglecting yourself and how to start changing that

Video of the Week: The Best Way Out Is Always Through

View this inspiring movie from Simple Truths called The Best Way Out Is Always Through
Remember to set your clocks an hour later tonight. :)

faith in God means faith in His timing

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Saturday Digest~February 25

~~~Been thinking a lot about Leaping this week: what to leap away from and what to leap into. And the timing of not leaping away too soon or out of fear and flight.

Then, this email message from Brave Girls Club arrives and I feel my shoulders slide downward to normalcy and my breathing slowly returning to deep contemplative.

So, dear girl, even if it is scary, scarier than you could ever even explain,

DO IT ANYWAY

~~~My focus verse this winter has been Philippians 4:8. Here is a delightful printing page of this verse to use for notes, journaling, devotionals, reminders…anything! It can be downloaded from this link.

Philippians 4:8 Journal Page

~~~And included with my uncertainty and thoughts of leaping, this post from Jody’s Devotionals offers reassurance. “The enduring promise of God is that He will never leave me. God is the perfect Father. He loves His children. He has been there, watching and waiting, all the time. From the moment I said “Yes” to Jesus, He moved into my life. Through the times of unlimited joy, my LORD has been there with the biggest smile, dancing over me (Zephaniah 3:17). Through the darkest, loneliest of nights when my face is flooded with tears, my Jesus is there to hold me and comfort me (John 14). When I cannot find the words, for whatever reasons, I can go to Psalms and find the outlet for my feelings. God has heard them all before. He’ll hear them again. God will sustain when I am too weak, too tired, too confused. When the path He asks me to walk is long and steep, He will walk beside me every step. He will even pick me up and carry me.” ~Jody Neufeld

With prayers for you to land in love after you leap…

Video of the Week: Steve Martin on banjo

Previous Saturday Digests

Saturday Digest~February 18

This week found me in the middle of questions…things to be decided once and for all…

~And there seemed to be questions in blogs too… “In a commonplace environment at an inappropriate hour: Do we perceive beauty? Do we stop to appreciate it? Do we recognize the talent in an unexpected context?”  The answer is in this post and video….Kindly read more From Paul, The Gratitude Guru

~Why Do I Suffer? I Suffer because…Sometimes the obvious question is the one worth asking. This post by Cheri Huber contained a new, favorite quote for me:

Now I am curious about what it feels like to live in Technicolor instead of monochrome – to be the picture instead of the negative.

~The Upside of Moving: “When God moves us out of our comfort zones, it is a gift. We are being given a gift. These hard places give us the gift of intimately knowing God — in ways that would never be possible in our comfort zones.” Ann Voskamp is this post of thoughtfulness

~This is the best medicine for me to take right now…Remember, sweet friend, that so much of the best wisdom we will ever earn will come from learning things the hard way. Please don’t beat yourself up over things that didn’t go the way you had hoped, over steps that were wrong, over roads that were dark. from Brave Girls Club, Read entire sentiment by gently clicking here

Video of the Week:

Please remember, His Grace is reaching for us…

Listen to the Sound  Building 429

Saturday Digest~February 11

~Kind of getting to the age where this is an attractive post: Super Health Benefits from Ginger Baths

A special thought of love right before Valentine’s Day:
Love lets go of it’s ultimatums — to ultimately hold a person Ready to let go of pain of the tearing apart of what was. Ready to take the ripped scraps, stitch them together, to make a sail from what’s dead and catch the wind ahead. Ready to take wind blowing in beyond my control, and just make water of it. I’ve been thirsty too long and I am desperate to drink. Sometimes letting go is how to find out He holds. Ann Voskamp, When the Wind Blows and Love Tries to Hold On

~How are you doing on your focus word for the year? Can you find the word “Affirm” in this word cloud by Bonnie Grey @ Faith Barrista?

~Still loving the images and languid pace of Winter’s description by David Arms:
Just like no two types of trees grow the same leaves, no two types of trees grow their branches in the same formation. And when the trees are bear, the intricacy of these patterns is beautifully displayed against the grey skies of winter. ~David Arms

~It really is time because “There is no time left for hesitating, protecting our hearts, or living in fear of doing the “wrong” thing, not pleasing others, rocking the boat. That way of living simply is not working. It’s an old paradigm whose days are numbered.” ~Alia in the Inner Bliss Blog post you will appreciate… Breathe and Read this post. Breathe and Read

~Ok, I have put on my big girl smile and adjusted to the announcement that April is the end of Picnik. Thanks to Ann Voskamp for providing these alternatives to Picnik

Most of us are looking for happiness in all the wrong places…Here’s Rachel’s road-map for increasing your levels of happiness…a blog pep talk shared by my friend Garrett at We Love Gratitude

 Video of the Week
You Belong by Mela Kamin

Saturday Digest~February 4

Happy New Month!

Why you should not argue with your inner critic, do yourself a favor and read this wise words from Tara Mohr

Clinging to our core is the best way to nourish our souls, click here to read more

Releasing a grudge is not only about making things right with the other person, but rather it’s about freeing your heart from the bondage of past hurt and lingering bitterness. Read more at this encouraging post by Melanie Moore

New Favorite Daily Email: Every morning a new verse on victory over fear http://365fearnots.com/

Video of the Week:

Sit back and just take in the beauty of Yosemite in this time lapsed video

Saturday Digest~January 28

~The longer we spend dwelling in doubts, the more powerful that story becomes, and we lose our power to change. ~Belle Pirri in this interview at Purposeful Women. This article also includes Belle’s How to Set Yourself Up to Make Choices You Love

~In all things there is the possibility of learning to trust…love the artwork and the message in this post

~Some who wander on the Internet are not lost, they are nourished! Wandered happily at this website

~Today and Always, please remember…You are a masterpiece. In the God Gallery, you are the only one of you.

~Is anyone else as jazzed as I am every time David Arms writes, creates, or expresses his ideas out loud? In this post he wrote, “I think it’s important to live this life looking from many perspectives. It’s important to observe from many angles. It’s important to see what others see. It’s how we learn, how we expand – even if we end up liking our own view better. And sometimes there is no ‘better’. It’s simply two different views.”

~I want them but…Sometimes there are no “You Are Here” indicators in life, but sometimes we knock on a door of opportunity but remain outside. We do not move through the door and enter

Video of the Week:

Somethings Gotta Change by Josh Wilson

“‘The more of us we swallow, the more we become hollow until we don’t know how to feel’. That line is so true. The more that we try to please ourselves and our sinful desires, the farther away from God we’ll be, and the more empty we will feel. Only God can fill that empty space inside of each of us. Oh God, forgive me for my pride.” ~Josh Wilson

 

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